Thank you for your answer and your encouragement. I'm sure some of the "trigger" stuff is cPTSD related, but the negativity, sadness, dysphoria, pain and slowness in particular feels like depression, even if I don't want to think depressive thoughts. Before my cPTSD happened, I had (undiagnosed, untreated) anergic dysthymia for a full decade. So even with cPTSD resolving, I have to deal with that too. Even if I don't really want to think of myself as having depression, ha ha


As far as triggers and the whole bunch of negative emotionality weakening/evolving... I liked your thought on that! That's going to take time (and so much energy) for sure, whether cPTSD or depression related. I've read and have just finished a fiction book again, and it was a medical thriller, one of my favourite genres lol. But the thriller parts didn't cause any trigger. There was a heavily emotional scene near the ending (the suspense at its max too lol), and I was still able to handle that but then the next (closing) scene I just couldn't. Even though that was no longer any suspense or anything, it was just a wife and a husband talking and wifey was negative and assuming bad things of the husband when the husband just did a lot to protect her, and it all ended up becoming a trigger for me. I did process it in the end...but man, yeah, the energy and time it requires, lol.


So yeah, it's gonna take a while. Thanks again (for letting me say this).