I can't seem to bear the thought of losing my mother. I would go places with her to shop for groceries and clothes and fun stuff and visit people. If that would happen, I would feel a terrible void of having another female close by. I'm afraid it'd be very hard on me to deal with. It makes me shudder just to think about it. I'm just trying to relieve this burden of emotion I'm feeling. it depresses me that I seem to act and think so young but I just know eventually I'm going to go the same way too.