It seems like I seem to bring others down with my moods and all. I was feeling rather low about my state of life today. Mother wasn't feeling all that well. That brother of mine told me she wouldn't last more than another half of year. Mother remarked that he said that so he would get the money. It made me kind of sad to find this out. It seems like I have to get out of the place just to get out of this emotional hole I find myself in sometimes.