A difficulty I face and which I described to my abuse advocate last night: I am conflicted about asking my husband about his failing father's health from time to time. If I don't, then I look like a calloused a-hole to all our friends, and if I do, it invites more contact between us. I am stuck between a rock and a hard place, and I'm damned if I do, damned if I don't.

So, I reached out last night to ask, and he said his father is now supposed to move out of the hospital to a rehab facility, but no rehab facility wants to take him. They say it takes too much "man power" to take care of him. The truth is his father is very abusive to staff, and I suspect this is also a reason why they won't take him.

Anyways, I feel I must do the right thing here - and the right thing to do is to check on his dying father and to show compassion from time to time.

I know people here say don't worry about what my friends think - but it's important to me to not be more isolated and alone than I already am... I don't want any judgements right now in my life. What matters most to me is what I think and what I need in my life. And I need my friends.