@Alive99, nice to see you return to the forums.

"It is one of the questions I've tried to answer for myself though: how could I get these bad experiences later in life?"

Sometimes, there are no answers. And when there are no answers, what can we do but process what has happened to us, integrate it into our lives, work on healing from it, and try to move forward from it all, taking what happened as a lesson in life. I've said this before and above, but really, what more can we do? It's all a process, and sometimes that process can take years.

I do hope you've been able to get on with your life in other ways and are not perpetually thinking about the past with these individuals? We need a mental vacation from traumatic experiences, although often they can engulf us so much that we cannot see or enjoy anything in life. For you, during the last few months, have you been able to take a mental vacation? I am working on this myself. I am not healed from my abusive marriage, which I know will take many more months and a lot more therapy.

Hugs to you in your healing journey and process.