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Originally Posted by modestlychee6463
It seems like I feel so depressed that I have a hard time concentrating and remembering stuff, even though I have done well with effort so far. I have a hard time with motivation and getting what I need to get done. I have dealt with some self hate and thinking disturbing thoughts. I'm just not feeling very happy. I don't know why.  |
Yup. That's the essence of depression. It takes work to find purpose again in your life and then the motivation will come.
I've read that depression is deceptive: you have to do the opposite of what the negativity is telling you. E.g. if it's telling you to not care and not bother, you shouldn't wait for motivation or happiness but just go do things ignoring the negativity whispering to you to not care, and then the negativity will eventually go away and you'll start being happier. And the better mood will help with finding a purpose again, too.
My only problem with this approach is that the negative emotions get too strong if I try to go against them like that. But this works well for moderate or mild enough depression. I hope it helps in your case.