So Sorry you're struggling! Please do not give up! i agree with the wise and wonderful Alive99 about this possibly being depression at work. Don't let depression win. Try to focus on yourself and on the things you like doing. Hobbies like watching movies or listening to music. Have you already considered seeing a therapist? Perhaps give that a try. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @modestlychee6463, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!