My plan BTW after the lockdown is that I will go to this hospital where you go in as an outpatient for an intensive programme every day during the week, and my plan is I will ask them to let me bring my laptop and work where they would play accountability partner for me. That would be the rehab programme that would work for me. I just need to be like, given space to deal with my reactions whenever they'll come out.

I also have another option to try this without going to any hospital, but again I have to survive 1) the next few days first 2) the rest of lockdown b*******. It's killin me lol but if I survived 1) then it won't be so bad either bc I already got some help, if I don't have the overload anymore that I do now (this big task to be done), I'll "just" have to work through the triggers regularly while doing a regular workload (part-time supposedly).

So how do I warmup for this big task is the only real question I have!