I am figuring out that I had extremely negative pictures about the delay on this task and related bad feelings. I don't even notice all that, I just dissociate and then I'm unable to feel what would be a realistic timeline for the task and try to do a too optimistic plan and then the whole negative picture and overwhelm gets worse. I've also found that I can't allow too good moods either about the idea of actually doing the task and things being so good because I'd be finally doing it...

I am basically relearning how to do my days, too. How to do tasks, and how to do the whole day. It's all so strange that I have to relearn everything.

And the strong negative emotions are exhausting and I have to tense against them so hard that it can cause actual muscle soreness. Lol. But I'm finding once I'm on track, it's not bad and I feel better, feel more content and stable.

All this is part of warmup issues. Interesting observations. Does anyone else relate?