Wheeler, I am too wishing it was just a bad dream. While our therapists have moved, and I know the reason, and you don't, let me say, it still is difficult for me to deal with. I can only seem to talk to her by way of writing about my week, and then reading it. this week was 7 pages typed on the computer, Last week it was 4 pages. I write my thoughts and feelngs, kinda like a journal, and just read. It takes away from having to focus on anything else and helpls. Nothing seems to take away how much I miss her though. I think it will hit harder when things start to ease back into normalacy., the in person visits. And here I am still doing virtual sessions.

I know not knowing is difficult and would cause so much anxiety. It would be a huge reason if she can not tell you, and hope that with her being near her family that things will improve for her. My T just wants to be closer to her grandkids, I don't blame her, I would probbably do the same. I would love to ask her if Covid played a part in her decsion or not? I dont want to ask, because it will not change anything. She moved. Its over. And i may not ever see her in person again. I also want to ask if she were to open a practice, an office, would she consider me coming once a month or something. I fear because I told her about my close call in following her that she would say NO. that for me its best we stay virutal. I dont think I could bring it up to her.

I hope that things improve for you, Wheeler. I hope that you will be able to figure out why its important for you to know, and be okay with it. Good Luck and have peace always.