OMG, I shudder to imagine what he would do to me!

He gave me the he’s sorry routine as usual, says he’s a nervous wreck and doesn’t know how to react when I spring new ideas on him…it’s true. He didn’t have to go say such a nasty comment about I don’t get along with anybody. He did it to hurt me. Why hurt his wife with emotional issues when he wants to put this on track? but, as usual, I’ve backed down again and said I still want to continue with him. I don’t have the balls to leave, still hoping we’ll learn to get along. It’s true, he’s more nervous than me. He’s a jerk who says and does hurtful things rather than helping me and building me up. I do seem to bounce back though. I guess this means I eventually have enough self esteem to forgive his stupid comments and actions. I go into deep depression, panic and want to end it and run, then back down and try to keep going with him.

I am more frustrated with myself than any of you here must be with me and I am sorry and thank you all for your kind support for so long on here.

Plus, I really feel like I need to be close enough to get to the youngest who is starting a very stressful program and may need some support. Not that I’m that much of a hover mom, it’s based on his anxiety and the very demanding major he is doing with a scholarship.

At least he did move his car out and mine is back in the garage.

I am flip/flop on all of this. I’m sorry guys. My volatile relationship is not okay. I am not okay with it.

You are right, Divine, I have no identity of my own.