Sarah, I don't know if this is possible, but if there is a psychoanalysis training institute in your area, sometimes it is possible to work with someone who is training to be an analyst for low or no cost. It seems like that kind of frequent contact and deep work might help you.

I wonder what other kind of mental health practices you have? I know a lot of studies show regular exercise, spending time in nature, things like that can improve mental health.

I know from your posts you have struggled for a long time, and it sounded like this last counselor was not helping you. I hope you can find something or someone that does help.