I don't remember why I said that. I don't even know what phenibut and kratom do for me - Maybe that's why. But I continue to do it to distract myself.

I have a lack of meaning in my life. I'm very lost. The executive dysfunction makes it so I can't do anything. I was feeling better last week but now I'm going downhill.

Edit: Well not really.. idk.. I see no problem other than the fact that I have no opinions or sense of self. I'm completely fine I think.