I started again after almost 4 years, but I did have this reflection:
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Originally Posted by byfnvy
I do want to say that it's different now than how it was before, I don't feel as bad and I don't cut as much or as often as I used to, so I guess that brings some hope and progress.
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Even feeling depressed feels different now than it did when I was younger. I feel more okay now. I'm not sure how to explain it exactly, it's like I feel that I'll always be okay. Even when I don't feel okay at the moment, I'll still be okay then.
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Since I posted that, I suppose I did start to get used to it again, but frequency is maybe once or a few days in a month, and a stretch of at least a month clean, depending on stress and stuff. There have also been stretches of almost or more than a year. The last few times have simply been out of pure frustration, to stop myself from screaming out and swearing, which could be a way to release emotion if it's appropriate for you.
Time passes so fast these days, didn't realize it's already been 5 years since I started again