I've been unofficially diagnosed, waiting for the psychiatrist now.. I've been dealing with the PTSD symptoms for a few months now. They come in waves of severity. Little things set me off. I feel like I'm constantly on edge, I flinch when my husband tries to touch me.

When I close my eyes, I feel the rush and then the shaking, the waves of emotion that hit me during that time, sometimes I just zone out.

The worst I've experienced lately is the smell and his touch, its like its burned into my skin and my mind. I'm terrified to remember it all. Its always there, lurking in the shadows.