Is there light at the end of this? Does it get better?

I'm struggling to know what to do anymore. my work is suffering i feel like my relationship is suffering too.

I keep wanting to cry. But I can't, I'm numb to the emotions, I'd rather forget. But here I am buried under a pile of emotions, fear, and stress.. his hands his touch are burnt into my skin, the smell, the sounds, the visuals are all so much, I feel helpless, some weeks I just don't want to be here anymore, some days are fine and others are hard. I spend a lot of time in my head or hiding on my phone or in video games.

I am in therapy, but finding it hard, going to see a psychiatrist too, and I'm working with a sleep Dr to improve that, but I feel like I'm being pulled in all directions. Its all new to me, managing this, the flashbacks and emotional ups and downs.

I feel like I'm drowning with no way out.