@Soupe du jour and @bizi and everyone:

Thanks for the support. It means a lot to me. Soupe, i *did* enjoy my pizza. I ate the whole thing. It was just a small but 1800 cals, still 50% over a day's worth. I guess i'm so calorie-deprived my body just devoured it.

I slept for nine hours from 6:00pm to 3:00am so i am feeling a little more human today. I have a big day tomorrow so i will power-relax today, no TV, a hot bath, just quiet music with my eyes closed, a minimum of cola and taking my dog out to enjoy the outdoors.

I'lm glad it's going well for you at your new for you at your new forum. I think i've got to find a therapeutic resource for myself to deal with my binge-eating disorder (BED). Dieting is actually DISCOURAGED in therapy for BED. Instead, healing is sought for underlying issues. Finding a weight-neutral therapy-resource is essential.

There is phone, chat and text support from the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) in The States but i'm not sure if it's available to me being that i'm Canadian. It's a 1-800- number so there is a possibility. I will try it. Chat should be available to me but it's not as nice as talking to someone.

Soupe, thanks for the encouragement about my benzo taper. Did not expect it to get so hard so soon. Sure part of the problem is my elevated mood. I remembered my doctor's instructions to step back to the last dose i slept well on if i run into trouble so i'm back at 9mg.

This is going to be a loooooooooooooooong project. I might not be able to make much progress until Spring is over. I might put it on pause til the Summer when i'm sleeping well again. Disappointing, but i'm only human.

Anyways, thanks for your time and attention ladies.