Thank you for taking the time to reply...especially since my post was so vague. A large part of what you said is true asfar as me wanting to put my walls back up or as I usual calling "Crawling back inside my shell". Sometimes the things I think are problems really are and sometimes I relise latter on that I made a bigger deal out of something then it really should have been...but in any case that is why I normally pretty much just suffer silently when I think I see something comming instead of making an issue out of it. I am normally a very outgoing person and dont mind expressing my opinions but I suppose I do not trust myself to not freak out of something that wasnt even worth worrying about and I dont want to cause a problem that isnt worth causing! I have a pretty good idea why I have this behavior but I dont know how to change it other then just telling myself to relax and let a situation settle and in order to see what is really going on...any I normally do that. I just wish I didnt go through all the worry still...it can be very emotionally taxing. *sigh*
Thanks for listening....