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I think I was born an independent thinker. As a child I learned that my parents didn't know what they were talking about so when they did, I probably blew them off then too. I learned young to think for myself & make my own decisions I thought from a logical point of view but I am sure there were emotions thrown in like "I want to do this & not that & you aren't going to make me".
I used to be less diplomatic about it than I have learned to be but guess I would have been catorigized as the strong willed child, I just did it more quietly.
My logical mind is probably why I became a computer design engineer & I used that same logic in my life. Even my attempts at SUI were based on logical thinking rather than emotion (go figure). I thought through my trapped situation & how it might be possible to escape & when I could find no logical way & I knew I couldn't tolerate more....that became my solution. So glad it didn't work or I wouldn't have been alive to enjoy the REAL solution that hit me out of the blue & nothing that ever could have been expected. But I acted on it without asking anyone about it because I knew it was the right thing to do & left.
I have in my new life found people whose opinions I now truly respect but mostly I talk through situations with them & listen to what they have to say. I kinda throw it all into the pot, stir it around & come up with what to do based on a combination of all the ideas thrown together (parts of them all) based on the foundation I know to exist. I love having people I trust & respect to discuss things with more than just asking for their opinion. Sure is nicer than totally depending on my own thoughts for everything & hoping I didn't overlook anything. Many times it actually validates the thoughts I have to formulate action on
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
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