Thank you so much for the updated! So Sorry for your Loss! i'd encourage you to share your story on the bipolar success stories forums as well if you want to! Please do continue to try your best like it seems you already perhaps do based on your post! Please do not give up! Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Giraffe101, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!