Yes, I talked to former T a lot about suicide and suicidal idealation. She held a lot for me of those thoughts in the frame. It was comforting to be able to express the desire to die. But it was also terribly frightening. She never moved to have me hospitalized. She probably should have in retrospect a few times at least. But she trusted me that I wouldn't act. I've acted twice and lived to tell about it. Once with her once with current maybe soon to be ex T.


Former T helped me see the things I have to live for and the people and animals (like my kitties) who are counting on me to be there. We talked a lot about my nieces and nephews and how they are more likely to commit suicide if they have a close family member commit suicide and I didn't want that legacy for them. Occasionally I still get suicidal. But it doesn't last as long or go as deep, at least it hasn't. When it comes then I know what to do. To think of these people and these animals that mean the world to me and then to picture myself not there for them.


Suicide used to be my default coping mechanism as Artley said. But I had to get to a point where it just isn't an option. former T helped me do that.


HUGS Kit