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Originally Posted by Lostislost
I’m not sure what’s going on with me, yesterday morning I was looking forward to taking something I drew (from a dream) to therapy and seeing what it might be. It’s been months since I did any art as I’ve been really ill. Anyway I took it to him and the whole thing flopped, he said it was interesting and it reminded him of some stuff but I didn’t really get any answers.
Then when I left I remembered how when I take any art stuff to show him, it usually ends up with me feeling ****** after. He doesn’t say anything bad about it but I just get the feeling he doesn’t like what I do, it doesn’t relate to anything inside him and makes me feel super lonely and misundersood.
I used to share photos of it on a private Twitter account to him as it felt safer, but had to stop doing that as he didn’t know what he was looking at and he seemed to not enjoy that kind of communication. He always encourages me to bring art I made in to therapy, which seems odd when all it does is make a huge gap between us.
Sorry this is so long I just don’t know how to feel or what to do. I’ve just slept since I saw him because I don’t want to be awake. I’m so tired.
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yea Ive been there with the same things happening. one time when my then treatment provider was from my point of view uncaring and not responding to my artwork like I imagined he would, I asked him what the deal was, was he really a cold hearted huuum huum hum. he actually burst out in laughter and told me he enjoys seeing my artwork, he loves I have a way to express myself. He does not feel its his place to critique my artwork as he is not an art specialist, and its not his place to tell me what my artwork seems to be saying. that its my artwork, and he is assuming I am not painting just to please him, just to get him to respond to my paintings. his example question... did you pull out your paints, easel, paper while saying Im going to make this for "Jake" he will be so proud of me, he will love this? I told him of course not I dont manipulate my therapists by doing my artwork to please or get attention from them.
then he told me that any time I brought artwork to him, he expects me to walk in, show him the artwork and tell him myself the back story, on it with out his trying to critique or interpret it. its my artwork so only I know why I pulled out the paints, easel and paper and made it, Im the only one that can say whether its a good painting or bad or what emotions is in it and so forth.
he was not going to sit there poking and prodding with questions and his opinions to get me to talk about my own artwork. someone who uses the arts for expression of emotions, dreams, hopes knows and is able to explain their own works of arts.
then he asked me if I had any plans for a gallery show lol
my point is maybe thats what your therapist wants, they dont want you to fall into drawing and so forth just for them, their opinions and attention. they want you to tell them about your artwork and how you feel about your own artwork, you are the artist, the one most qualified to know how and why and what your intended purpose of the artwork is.
suggestion maybe you can sit down with your drawing and wrote about what it means to you, why you drew it and what you hope to get out of the drawing of it. that will tell you where to go next with it.