i think i have thought about this too sometimes. i think self-control can be important even in terms of social skills. i don't think i am really good at that though even though i have tried sometimes i think. Are you currently seeing a therapist? Perhaps that may Help. i also agree with the wise and wonderful CANDC about trying to not react. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @cklasik, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!