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Default May 12, 2021 at 06:51 PM
 
I neeeed to reign myself in. I’ve been fluctuating all day. I’ve got a haze of depression over me but at the same time I cleaned the kitchen and living room completely. But I also went out to the store and bought some more ****. I was strolling through the store screaming internally to GET OUT before I spent any more money. I’m like spending kind of impulsively. I bought 8 tops, I already have a drawer full. I bought decorative plants. I bought two new candles to make my living room “look right”. And it was all on credit cards. And I got two doctors bills totaling a bout $350 plus a water bill for another $110. Like wtf am I doing?

I’ve got to plant myself firmly at home tomorrow. Go out only to walk. And I need to move my Amazon app or at least remove my cards from being saved. That’ll make me think twice.

I can do more of a deep clean on the kitchen tomorrow and clean the bathroom and our bedroom. The spare room is clean. And I’ll start up some lanyard keychains.

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