Bertrand Russell and many other philosophers thought we relied too much on busyness. I have been in a similar state as you for a much longer time. I consider myself to be healing. A sort of second adolescence. We change completely from 13 to 19. My changing time will be from 64 to 70.

I went out today to get my first covid vaccine. I havent been out since probably xmas, when i was having emergency dental work. I followed my familiar route - library, hairdresser, drugstore, then a crosstown hike back to the bus terminal. It felt good not to be the same person.