Its not just one thing.

I'm having some friend issues, sort of. They're my issues. They're small. I have a friend who..........I like as a person and we connect very well emotionally. He is also often saying things thing that hurt me. Not on purpose. But he has a very skewed way of looking at the world. I know that if I keep him as a close friend, I'll continue to feel upset. Maybe. I'd like to recognize that he has issues and not take what he says to heart. Maybe even say something back like "I disagree" or "that's not how I look at the world." Or even " I think you're wrong."

I have another friend...a female...who I'm frustrated by lately. She didn't wish me happy birthday on my birthday. That's small too, actually. Its not like we are married. Or super tight. Though she has been a good friend to me. I will let this go. She has been stressed and she's extremely busy, has ADD, and she's an extrovert with way more people in her life. Theres a comment she made a little while back that's bothering me, but I can talk to her about it if it really bothers me.

I wish I had closer friendships. Maybe I need a roommate. Lol. Or a boyfriend, lol. Being single can be hard sometimes. It should come with its own merit badge / trophy: "I carried the bookcase up the stairs by myself" and "I put my hair in a ponytail by myself when my arm was broken."

That's kind of it. Lol. I do have some things in life that are stressful. And my m.h. issues...don't make that easier, lol. But I'm also....trying to be kind to myself, emphasis on trying, and trying to balance taking responsibility for my part in conflicts: "and it's ok and I want to do better."

I'm looking for a new apartment and a job. I just signed up to take a pottery class and yoga. Two separate classes lol. Exercise really helps and I miss being in an art room.