Thank you both for responding. Unaluna, we have a set ofparallels. We are age cohorts, and this is a time of transition, as you describe it, for me too. I feared that, if I'm not doing well now, I'll only be worse as I get older. That may be something I should not assume. I admire your hiking a familiar route.

Thanks, TishaBuv, for understanding that grief is a factor in my situation. I thought that I had weathered the worst of that. But I am now alone as I have not been for decades. Eleven months probably is not long enough to adjust to that. The makeup suggestion is not a bad idea. I stopped wearing makeup during the years I was constantly caregiving. I did just get a haircut for the first time since last July. With some makeup applied, I could actually look not half-bad. I'ld then feel more like a person. I'll have to try. Tomorrow I have to leave this apartment. It helps every time I do. I did just rejoin a neighborhood gym. Some time on the treadmill and smiling at some other members would do me no harm . . . maybe some real good.

Morning is my hardest time.