So Sorry you have to put up with this! Please do not give up! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about not having much to share myself. i do Hope that things will improve soon. Sorry if this post isn't Helpful but i do wish you the best. Please do stay Safe. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Alive99, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!