So Sorry you are struggling! Please do not give up! i think the two can definitely go hand in hand. i know i have been focusing too much on my distractions and need to focus on real life more for example. i think trying to keep yourself in check may be a solution. Give yourself some set Time dedicated to do certain things, like an hour or less. i know it's easier said than done but i think it may be worth trying. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Alive99, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!