Yes, COVID, no doubt, affects and throws off a lot of familiar patterns. I have plenty of company in that regard. Lots of people have been more badly affected than I've been. I know mine aren't the worst problems, but I've gotten overwhelmed by them nonetheless.

This viral issue is winding down. I thought that would speed up me getting back on track. I feel like I ran out of gas and can't find a way to refuel. This is awful disappointing. It's like I'm getting to the bus stop just ten seconds too late. The bus has pulled out, and I can't catch up with it. I don't expect anyone in my real life to understand this. That's a lonely feeling.

I'm going to read some "success stories" in the forum for that. Maybe that will give me some hope. People do recover from being very down.