Yeah...I'm curious, have you ever had the issue where you only felt better for a short time before it started to feel like it required too much energy of you to keep feeling "up" / energetic, etc etc? Because I had that issue even with the most basic things like dressing up. It lifting me up quickly started to feel bad for me. Tiring, or just unpleasant how much "extra" energy it required... idk. I'm past that issue for dressing up, thank god. But I'm not past it for many other things yet. Especially with work (remote work). Ugh. It's a big problem for me.

It's like I keep myself "understimulated" for pretty long every day and then getting and then remaining "stimulated" (in fact, just a normal energy level) feels too hard. I've told myself to try and not let myself fall back into the "understimulated" depressive stuff after breakfast, but I somehow don't seem to be able to manage that yet. (Getting dressed up, hygiene routine, breakfast - these keep me "stimulated"/allow me a normal energy level in a way I am decently used to now, but I can't make that jump from there after breakfast, to go start work and I instead fall back for a long time)


I don't know if this is relevant to OP because I think this only gets this bad - trouble maintaining the good, stimulated mood/energy level rather than enjoying it - if you've had dysthymia/depression for long enough. Plus I've had cPTSD (after letting myself being sucked dry by a couple of vampires, too) and that may affect it too. But I wonder if any of you relate. If it's okay to ask here. Maybe it helps OP too even if she only has a milder (?) version of this.