I rebooked the session I cancelled for tomorrow. New T G emailed on the 12th asking If there was anything he could do to support me.

Then in another email in response to mine with all of this validation stuff. It just seems so fake and his response makes me want to cancel again. It's tomorrow at 10am.

If I'm being honest I feel scared.and my b***** attitude is just a front. I don't think I deserve kidness. My head is messy can I really get paeds done? What about after that with my retake internal exam?

"What if it hurts like hell?"

Then it will hurt like hell.