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Originally Posted by Rose76
I'm watching birds coming to the bird feeder outside my bedroom window. That's all I want to do - sit up in bed and watch the birds.
A year ago, I was busy caring for my boyfriend who was sick and near the end of his life. He's gone. I got over the initial, severe pain of losing him. I'm not paralyzed with grief. Time heals. However, I just don't have any energy to even get dressed. I would call this depression, I guess.
My bedroom window is nice to look out of. I can see sky, mountain tops, rose bushes and birds. They sound sweet, chirping on and off. I'm comfortable here. I don't want to move.
My apartment is very messy.
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I am sorry you are still struggling Rose.
Are you being treated for depression? I am on low doses of two different antidepressants and I occasionally skip one of them because it give me gas, makes me nauseated, makes people gain weight, etc. but when I do, I do notice my depression rearing its ugly head so I go back on it. For me, the medications do help. Also, I have had times in my life where I was on percocet or acetaminophen and oxycodone and when I first go on it--it makes me feel good but when I am on it for too long, it pushes me into depression. Having had that experience with it, I can't help but wonder if your pain killer is contributing to your depression. I am sorry you struggle with this medication.
One of my favorite things about walking is all the birds I see. My favorite ones are a pair of swallow tailed kites--there flying is so smooth. I would recommend trying to force yourself to walk. Even as a child, I noticed that walking in nature made me feel happier. Are you able to walk?
There are parts of my home that are very messy and I should vacuum more than I do (but the vacuuming and dusting does make my allergies really bad). You are not alone in this.