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Old May 12, 2008, 09:31 PM
Suzy5654
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I've often had this kind of inappropriate (in my opinion) reaction to things with my husband. I've left in a huff or tearful rage in the midde of the night with little provacation or even worse--at a dinner at a restaurant with a bunch of other couples, for example. One time I insisted he charter a private plane to fly me & the kids off my dad's yacht when we were visiting the San Juan Islands--just the interaction wth my siblings & dad there set me off. I just get into my head all this hurt & rage over his (husband's) behavior that I interprete as uncaring or an insult or something. Or in the case with the trip with my dad, it was my dysfunctional childhood brought back to the forefront as my biolological family gathered there for a "vacation"--more like house of horrors, revisited.

For me it was a result of undiagnosed bipolar. I would just be on an incredible edge of going into an intense hurt/rage at things. My whole family was walking on egg shells. With medication this lessened a lot & then with therapy I'm trying to figure out what my "triggers" are & to prevent me from acting in irrational ways.

When I think back, I just did a lot of rash things--leaving parties because I took offense, setting out in the middle of the night just to be dramatic because my feelings were so intense &, unfortunately, overdosing & ending up in the ER.--Suzy