Yesterday I bought a pint of rum and chased it with Coke walking home then smoked weed. I woke up this morning and took my stimulant, two double shots of rum, then more stimulant and another double shot. I felt good for an hour and then crashed and then it felt like my brain chemicals were drained so I took xanax, extra olanzepine and phenibut.

Tomorrow I'm going to turn this around completely and stop using because it doesn't help me.

I'll be going hiking every second day or so so I'll get in shape and be distracted.