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I know after spending only 4 intense months caring for my soulmate doggie , Leo when he had lung cancer (we were together 16 years) I was totally, physically & emotionally drained. It was a loss like I had never experienced before. I still had his older sister who had doggie dementia to care for & his blind younger brother so that actually was my good excuse to stay home & do what little I had to do to care for them. Didn't get out of the house much & felt so totally lost without him in my life.
6 months later, my horse trainer let me know she was shipping my horse to me. At that point I had to get out of the house & take care of preparations to actually have my horse on my farm after 11 years. I think that broke my being stuck but the tears & the emptiness still surrounded me through the forced activity. It was also summer then & owning a farm requires a lot of outdoor work which also broke my stick spot in my grieving. Look inside my house & there are only a few rooms truly livable. The rest are disorganized. Two + years later, I am slowly putting a dent in the disorganization. I still cry tears missing my soulmate. I am enjoying having my horse & a new cat that showed up on my farm just after my horse arrived.
Life continued & even FORCED me back to functioning. But I sure KNOW I needed the time to recover from the physical exhaustion the care created & the emotional exhaustion of losing a huge piece of my heart. For me I was glad that something in my life broke me out of where I was but I also KNOW & was thankful for that healing time because I definitely needed that too.
I have been known to cook dinner for myself at 3am. The Joy's of living alone, there are no time requirements other than our own
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
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