Unfortunately you were in an unhealthy relationship and even with an effort to get help the relationship did not improve. When in an unhealthy relationship there develops a lot of stress and inability to develop healthy communication. This increases frustration and a sense of powerlessness.

The truth is we are actually powerless when it comes to interacting with another person who is not willing to develop healthy communication. The only power we have is to walk away and that includes not expecting the other person to admit they are unhealthy to continue having a relationship with.

You have taken the first steps to get your sense of power back. Yet once you leave it can take time to grieve whatever you feel you lost. Then to work on yourself and slowly learning to navigate forward on your own. It takes time to gain a healthy sense of self again. It’s something many talk about in that it’s difficult. Yet with time and patience progress can slowly take place.