For me, my counselor is the only one I meet on a regular basis, mostly once a week. I have nobody else as my family of origin live far away and I have no family of my own. I don't have any friends I meet in person and I also don't work.

As I don't have work, nor a partner I feel noone would be interested in dating me, nor become my friend. I'm also very ashamed for how my life turned out and that I've failed to accomplish most of the important milestones in life.

My only direct meeting with someone is with my counselor who's now more than an acquaintance to me than a counselor. She can't give me the treatment I need but I stay with her both because my lack of options and because I like her as a person.

The relationship though feels very fragile as she not dependent on me as I'm with her. It's a very limited relationship but I need to handle that as she's the only close person I have.