I’m going easy on myself. I am hurt and angry at how I’ve been treated. It’s my own faulty thinking that they would care how I feel and have my back. It’s not illogical or unreasonable thinking. It’s the kind of behavior I have seen other people do in society and in media all the time. But, some of the people closest to me do not treat me that way at all. So, my faulty thinking is that THEY would treat me how I want to be treated by having my back, but THEY do not. For some reason G-d surrounded me with people who lack the trait of this behavior toward me and gave me a huge chip on my shoulder (trigger) about it. So I will learn to be stronger and take care of myself rather than expecting anything from others, is the take-away message I get.

I did take care of myself without their help. Not too well, though. I cried over these A-holes for way too long. Now I do what I want. And, if they should need me to have their backs, I will treat them as they have me.