(Please excuse me in advance for any mistake with the language)

I feel guilty with the psychotherapist because I know it's not okay to dig in the past, but i'm in a moment of my life when I need to do it, after years when i was so uncaring
I say to myself: she's human, what am i doing? I don't want to put her down

I don't know, i've been like that for quite a while now :/