The only thing I did today besides dinner is clean the bathrooms No running the Vac, steam cleaning the floors,laundry, dusting etc etc etc things I do every single day !

I know that my Bipolar just being so jacked up is the cause, well my pain is high but that has seldom ever gotten between me and my cleaning..

At this point I am going to have to just figure out life on Lamictal, Doxepin and Xanax which I suspect the NP I will be seeing is going to take me off it. I try not to go down the rabbit hole, but it happens.

I have 147+ coping skills but nothing thus far is sticking I'll keep throwing things at it. Maybe I'll get lucky?

Oh ok I have something that is rather shocking to me. My husband is just not a reader, even in school he hated to read a book. He just can't stay focused. Anyway we have watched the movie " The Shack" a zillion times and I always say the movie is okay but oh the book is of course much better ! He said he wanted to read it I got on Ebay a nano second later. Found one for I think 5 bucks. Anyway he's really reading it !!! He even said he is enjoying it alot.

I read all the time and always have, its my escape! well lately I have trouble focusing. But my favorite Author has released another book in the series.. 19 so far and he had no plans to stop Thankfully..

So anyone have a Magic wand and can help a girl out?