Living alone probably does make it worse. I at least have my husband around, but we are not having any picnic here either. I just realized that we recently passed May 16th. May 16th was when lockdown started in my area last year, "just for a short time to flatten the curve of hospital admissions." It lasted 132 days or 4.3 months. Now we are going to hit two months of the second lockdown tomorrow. The Health Ministry has even said things like they know that longer lockdowns lose their efficacy and had indicated that they wouldn't use lockdowns for more than four weeks. They lie. When asked about this in press conferences, they just evade. All they talk about is the successful vaccination campaign, but where are the results? I read a good comment on a news article saying that instead of just repeating numbers, they Health Ministry needs to give us some real answers about why their promised improvements from the vaccinations have yet to be seen, of the serious cases, how many people were fully vaccinated, what vaccine did they receive, etc. The problem is there is no discussion. Reporters sometimes ask in press conferences but are never given straight answers.

Something I have noticed is that the president and Health Minister have stopped with the positive pep talk about herd immunity, light at the end of the tunnel or that we would see improvements in deaths/hospitalizations in late March, early April, mid-April, late April, mid-May etc. Do they no longer believe it or do they realize that no one else believes them? Or maybe it is both. I wonder.

I am sleeping poorly as well. It's part the anxiety from my situation, but also we bought a mattress that didn't turn out to be very good. Then I have a little dog named Helmut that insists on using my shoulder as a pillow. I ordered a mattress topper that is supposed to help with the mattress situation. It's cheaper than replacing the mattress and I don't have to figure out how to dispose of the old one in the middle of lockdown. It arrives tomorrow. I may try a herbal sleep aid again too.