@Soupe du jour and all:
Yeah, i had much more active episodes in my twenties and thirties. I had a lot of fun but suffered a lot of shame after too so on the whole i am glad that time has passed. Like you said, there was something unhealthy about that behavior.
I still get high mood and want to take on the world but oddly enough, it's my weight that slows me down. So another plus of being fat.
The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak!