Hi Sarah, I can identify with how you feel as I also feel intense sadness over the loss of the T I had been seeing for two years, and who I also chose to stop seeing. I’ve also had the experience of thinking that I would like to tell her something, but Knowing that I can’t. I also wonder what she thought when I stopped seeing her, and kind of assumed that she probably had some negative thoughts about me. I found the therapy experience so painful I try to not think about it, and when I realise I am, I try to block the thoughts by replacing the thought with the word hedgehog. It seems to help. Sometimes I slip and allow myself to think about it again, as I’m feeling better about it, but then painful feelings come up again. I’m also saying to myself ‘don’t expect to feel any different right now’. That seems to help.