I feel that too, most of the time.
I'm a nobody.
I'm a failure.
I suck.

But purplebutterfly, do you have someone whom you can talk to in real life? Like who could comfort you despite these crap going on? I keep everything to myself and I seldom tell people what's going on with me. I put on a fake happy mood. ;[ But I do have one person who I can run to (a friend I met back when I was admitted in the psychiatric ward) and I can rant about things to that person. And that person understands and just comforts me even if he can't understand, lol.

It's better if you have one like that. But if you're alone, rather, go online here and have a chat with people who'll most likely understand your situation ;]

It sounds you're going through a hard time, but I'm sure this online community is more than willing to be of help, in whatever way it can ;]

I hope you're doing better. We're all struggling.

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