I am back doing better. Today I went out to lunch with a friend. I even put on some makeup, which I haven't done in months. Tomorrow I have someone coming by who I have hired to help me with organization. I have used this person before. His service is a bit expensive, but was really worth it in the past. I have paperwork in little piles all over the house. Still I can never find important papers. This professional organizer will help me set up a system with files, etc. When I reduce the chaos around me, I get a huge boost in mood.

The words of encouragement you've all given me in this thread really broke the log jam and got me moving. Thank you all.