@will19 I'm sorry you're struggling too and I hope it gets better for you too.

Some of what I experience internally, is certainly depressive thinking and distorted thoughts. That being said, it can certainly feel barren and disconnected with certain places and ppl I frequent and...its up to me to either change where I go and who I hang out with, change my mentality, or just...accept it? I'm inclined to the first two options.

15 years is a long time, imo. I haven't worked in 8 years and the longest I've had a job was 3 years. Have you thought about looking for another job? We change.

Thanks for saying I'm not worthless. Neither are you.