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May 20, 2021 at 09:53 PM
As things start to open up from the pandemic and I get back to some of my regular activities that I didn't do all year, I realize how much I miss Tamster and what a whole her death has created in my life. I really miss all my phone conversations with her. I used to talk to her all the time, and I wish she was around so I could talk to her about all the new things happening. So much has changed in my life. And she was always so supportive - just a wonderful friend and cheerleader. Even a mentor in so many ways.
It's just hard because I felt so close to her, but never got to meet her in person. I wish I could have gone to her funeral or told her family what she meant to me. But I know that it would be an intrusion on their life. I also know that their experience of her may be different than mine, and I don't want to intrude upon their own grief and mourning.
I wish I could think of something to do to honor her rightly that would help me with my grief. I'm not quite sure what though.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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