I don't want to do grounding technics or take my prn. I'm so scared. I'll be home alone tomorrow so I need to get my **** together. I know I have to be adult about this the whole thing sucks. I want to turn in on myself. I had a pdoc appointment today and I thought everything was fine. Now it's different. I want to be okay with being home alone tomorrow. If I do any of those things H will be on high alert. Plus they'll catch it fast as they're monitoring my weight 2x a week. This is BS! I'm mad I have to use healthy coping mechanisms. WTH this is stupid.