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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
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My meds make my birth control ineffective as well but I prefer to stay on so that I can have predictable periods. Without birth control I have no idea because it varies so widely. I’d just like to try something that might tackle at least the period-related depression! I hate being suicidal for three days for absolutely no reason at all.
My mood is still on the high side of positive but maybe this is my actual baseline and I’ve just been so unhappy and anxious because of past trauma that I couldn’t attain it. I’m talking to my family much more and doing things like sitting outside and stuff like that. I am quite irritable when I am in PHP groups but that’s just my general resistance to groups in the first place. I feel like I should have just gone back to work instead of doing another program. It’s really annoying. I feel like I don’t belong but at the same time it might be because everyone’s exactly like me and isn’t sharing the whole reason for being there. I don’t want to say I completely lost touch with reality for a week or so.
I’m doing that thing again though. You all know the one. Where you think you’re better, that the last episode really wasn’t that bad anyway, and you know better than any doctor so ditch the med you don’t like! Yeah. I don’t want to ditch everything, I do very well on the two mood stabilizers plus seroquel to sleep. But I don’t want a damn AP ( except to sleep)! I just don’t like the idea of needing an AP for an extended amount of time. I don’t know why. There’s nothing wrong with that really, nothing at all. I just don’t like it! I just started geodon too so there aren’t any noticeable side effects anyway. |
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wildflowerchild25, It also took me a long while to figure out what my true baseline was. My old psychiatrist used to say my baseline was "mild hypomania". Looking back, I suppose it was, but that has seemed to change. My more recent baseline has been what I assume is a more standard one. It's probably quite good that you are looking at what yours might be.
Period stuff can be a hassle. I totally get why you want the birth control to help with it. But I think the choice of which is significant. It's funny, when I was on the pill (Sorry buddah1too for the continuing lady talk), mine were all over the place. It wasn't until I got off of it that I became really regular again. Strange how we all react differently.
During my 3 1/2 years of many hospitalizations I was always ordered to attend a PHP/IOP. Once when I tried to quit it prematurely, they not only threatened me, but my private therapist AND private psychiatrist (on the outside) quit me. I was then forced to stay in the IOP, after which they found me a new private tdoc/pdoc. I guess it was for the best. I literally attended PHP/IOP 12 times. Ugh! Yea, it got old. And the money it cost! Unbelievable!
Good luck with the Geodon. It served me fairly well for about 5 of the 7 years I took it. It was certainly one of the friendlier APs I took, up until the last 2 years. Initial over sedation eased significantly, and it was always weight neutral for me.